Suffering builds character. My parents have repeated that before. No, wait, my mother has nagged that before. Indeed, I have realised the wisdom in that verse. Someday, some very distant day, when I have suffered enuough and have been humbled by the world to a sufficient amount, I may look back and respect this woman who right now as I stand, have no value to her personality.
I need direction. I have some already, but that may not be enough.
I cannot say I have suffered, indeed I have been very unhappy, and done some soul searching, I would pay to be in somebody's shoes, to be in the shoes of a poor underfed, overworked, underprivillged boy. I would pay to learn the worth of humility, not to be humble, but to be humble enough to appreciate the things I see before me.
I have not felt this way in a long time.
My relationship with Hawon has reached an all time low. Yesterday, Wednesday the 28th of January we came really close to breaking up. We had some really serious conversation. And that sent me thinking, I am not going to break up with her today or tommorow, if I do, the soonest will be on Wednesday the 4th of Febuary, as once a wise man said, before making any serious, big descision, wait one week, do not act on impluse. The relationship is not unsalvageable, the problem is, is this relationship worth salvaging. Right now I feel the answer is no.
I am going to be a great man someday, as God is my witness. I shall. God would not put the lust of being something powerful in a man's heart if it is not within the grasp of that man. People may say, you are young you think this way, all young people have the wanting to be rich. If someone says in my face that I feel this way because I am young and untested with the world, and says that with a few more years I will realise that I am just another person, I will strangle that human being with my bare hands there and then.
I was not born to be mediocre.
I need direction. I have some already, but that may not be enough.
I cannot say I have suffered, indeed I have been very unhappy, and done some soul searching, I would pay to be in somebody's shoes, to be in the shoes of a poor underfed, overworked, underprivillged boy. I would pay to learn the worth of humility, not to be humble, but to be humble enough to appreciate the things I see before me.
I have not felt this way in a long time.
My relationship with Hawon has reached an all time low. Yesterday, Wednesday the 28th of January we came really close to breaking up. We had some really serious conversation. And that sent me thinking, I am not going to break up with her today or tommorow, if I do, the soonest will be on Wednesday the 4th of Febuary, as once a wise man said, before making any serious, big descision, wait one week, do not act on impluse. The relationship is not unsalvageable, the problem is, is this relationship worth salvaging. Right now I feel the answer is no.
I am going to be a great man someday, as God is my witness. I shall. God would not put the lust of being something powerful in a man's heart if it is not within the grasp of that man. People may say, you are young you think this way, all young people have the wanting to be rich. If someone says in my face that I feel this way because I am young and untested with the world, and says that with a few more years I will realise that I am just another person, I will strangle that human being with my bare hands there and then.
I was not born to be mediocre.
posted by Joel at 10:45 PM
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