There is something wrong with my neck, I seemed to have twisted it, and now, I am sitting here on this Cool as computer chair with this huge ass beach towel wrapped tightly round my neck as a neck brace. I have so much homework to do, but somehow I just don't feel like doing it.

I am never myself. Never, simply because I don't know what being myself is. What is being JOel, many people would know what being John Malcovich is, but being Joel? Nobody knows. Joel doesn't know himsefl. It would be so cool to be asexual. A monosexual race would be cool, no genders, lol.

Wonder what happened to the philosophical romantic dude that used to hang round somewhere in my mind, he ditched me somewhere at the end of form 5. I miss him sometimes.

I really don't know what to blog, Who bothers reading this blog of mine anymore? The counter at the bottom seems to have stopped moving.

I hate my hair, and i so many other things about myself. lol If you want a full list ask Tina, I have bitched to her quite a few times about it. well, hair is easy to manage I am thinking of getting something like Brad Pitt's hair style the one in Fight Club. The kind of moderately long spikes all over the head, long time since i have done a cool combed spike.

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Quote of the day
You can't learn to love anyone untill you learn to love youself
I may have gotten the quote wrong, but I heard it off Ker Han when at his house one day. Hrm maybe it is strangely fitting so, coz I hate myself alot.

I have just been lying on my bed, strumming the guitar. I haven't been really happy as of this afternoon. It seems like the feeling I am having right now can be compared to a feeling I felt long time ago. It was when I was walking past a newspaper stand, on the way home from school. I managed to catch a glipse of the title of the leading tabloid of singapore. I read it and stopped, for a while. And then I bought a copy of it, as I read it, the more I felt like the title is the pure truth, to the last letter. Most tabloids have puns in thier top stories, this one had one full page dedicated to that one article, no advertisements, nothing, Just a couple of words and a picture of a sports person. I sat on the bus and slowly read the title aloud to let the information sink in.

"It's over. Cantona quits"

For those who do not follow up on the commngs and goings of English soccer. Let me explain it to you with an analogy with the flavour of today.

Eric Cantona was a soccer player. In today's world we have Giggs and Owens and all the other famous soccer stars of English Football. We also have a demi-god David Beckham. When compared to Cantona, they don't rank up. Cantona stits amongst soccer greats like Pele and Veiri. Cantona was the golden boy of the English Premiership. People would wear jerseys with his number on it, the Red Devils reigned supreme with him as thier captain. O' Captain my Captain. He quit in 1996 because he had played so much soccer it had become boring and no amount of money Manchester United could pay him would convince him to stay.

Well, as you can see now, I am a fan of soccer. And Cantona quitting was a blow.

Now I feel a tinge of the same feeling comming over me. But the tabloids in my mind now read

"It's Over. Sytingco leaves"

In some ways the same conclusions can be seen, Cantona's skill with the ball can be seen as Gillainne's winning personality, and his captaincy over the Red Devils can be seen as Gilainne's partial captaincy over the crowd that hangs in Mansfield. If Gilainne is not present what is the glue that binds us all to that area? Ronald would not haunt Mansfield anymore. people may come and stay but it won't be the same. There is no glue in the bonds. When a good freind who I don't know that well leaves, it somehow makes me feel sadder as when compared to a freind I know very well, as with the freind I know well, I can always keep in contact with and the likelihood that I will loose contact with that person is really low, but with someone I don't know that well, contact disintergrates and I loose the person I once knew as a freind.

So as I sat there, and laid down and hugged my guitar after strumming many a melancholic chord in the Minors. I sat and thought so many of my freinds have left and are not comming back. They few people that I could have really deep converstaion with are leaving. First Krishneel, now Gilainne and soon to follow Ker Han. Seems like the Pax Joelia is going the same way of the Pax Romana. Society of Macleans as we know it is crumbling.

Oh well, I have to read 1984 now. And it is Valentines Day 2morow, HEEE HEEE HEE HE EHEHEE HEHEHE., I have no idea why in Dog's name I am laughing like a mad man, maybe it is because I am.

Valentine's Day some guys love it, some guys hate it, but the for the majority of blokes out there it means (I do mean blokes coz only BLOKES would feel this way about Valentine's day), red underwear and sex, otherwise there really isn't anything to it.

Me? Valentine's Day is as usualy, keping the PAX JOELA, The Joelia Peace. Which is normally present 365.25 days a year unless Joel went to war somewhere on this planet.

I have suddenly taken to liking Music by groups like Six pence none the richer and other bands that have really nice non upbeat music that I normally tend to love. BAH, the mood of the season has really gotten to me AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I am really dissapointed in myself. The number of Valentines I sent out this year that were non-prankish were just disgusting when compared to the prank ones. Probably coz I grew abit wiser and realised that telling people on Valentine's Day that they suck, so don't eat the flower wouldn't be too nice. ROFLMAO

I can't help but feel guilty when all my freinds are working so hard with so much homework yet somehow due to my combination of classes and teacher. I have literally JACK SHIT to do for howework with the exception of Classics which is just simply put, so dammed simple. Well, yeah for Enlgish I do have some, but that is just simply reading 1984, a great book, but I must say I am dissapointed with the thickness of the book, it is so thin, hardly befitting a scholarship class.

Nitez and Ciaoz

I have wanted to say this before but I never really got round to it. The Christina Agueiliera, or however her name is spelt. Okay it is Aguilera. Sue me. Anyway, her Music video Dirrty is very interesting. The whole concept of a gang bang in the sewers is really original and I salute that.

I can't believe I would ever succumb to Arkham's Razor. That is cause of a problem is usually the simplest answer. Or however syntax chooses it to be. I don't care, sue me again. I was trying to listen to some music, YES TRYING, Actual TRYING. Y? Coz I was wondering what was wrong with my speakers, it is bad enough that my Hi Fi in My room has blown a fuse and I can only get mono sound from one speaker, this sucks, no more beautiful all encompassing music. The computer speakers were working I rebooted the computer twice and tried all sorts of configuration issues and replugging the speakers, only to realise that they weren't turned on in the first place. LOL.

I was listening to Christina Aguilera's song Dirrty on the computer and reading Logan's blog at the same time and I was wonder when I downloaded this new remix of the song. But it so happened that Logan's blog was pumping out tunes that my com was playing at the same time too. Another LOL

Ciaoz 4 nowz

First day in Wing Chun which I got my BRAND SPANKING NEW BLACK UNIFORM and I would like to add this, The difference between me and Bruce Lee is that I MAKE THIS LOOK GOOD yeah and the Wing Chun Garb is so DEAD SEXY it is actually a Karate Gi with the sleves folded up, which I would like to add, is so me, coz I MAKE THIS LOOK GOOD And I mean I MAKE THIS LOOK SOOOOOO GOOD And well, As all usual Gis the more you work out in it, the more it falls apart and that is SOOO DEAD SEXY. Yeah logan and I were arguing over how old this black belt guy over there was, Logan asid he was 18, but I said he would be at the most 14 ish, coz he looks really boyish. An 18 year old with his face would be just wrong, a heaps of 18 year olds look like shit, but this guy was hot, Girls would dig him, dead center. HELL, I would dig him. I mean if I had his looks girls would be begging me to give me head. In the event you didn't alrady realise I am exaggerating a wee bit here Yeah, that is Wing Chun 4 ya. YES 85% to full front splits now, and 75% to full side splits.

Valentines Day is on Friday, Cool, wonder what will happen (Thinks really hard) Yeah well that is life.

Ciaoz 4 now.

I just watched this TV show on TV and on the TV was Michael Jackson, he looked just the same the last time I saw him on TV. I don't really really like watching TV, in fact when compared to most guys I watch very little TV. I am not feeling very enlightened after watching that on TV. I sat down and watched that entire TV show. All 1.5 hours of deforming my butt, which I'd like to add, is too large. We not be feelin so mellow now.

My day was boring how was yours?

Yeah.

I would like to add, that I have found out that a few other of my friend are on crack. Dope heads are hallucinating as normal, seeing Cats and Tinas all round the place.

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